Placement is out and after listening to the (multiple) shattering of this thing called the heart as they announced it, it’s been decided that I will be heading to Krishna Institute of Medical Sciences in Karad, Maharashtra.

Let’s look on the bright side first (which will be brief) It looks nice, the university. And it is also pretty cold there which is a great change from scorching Malaysian weather. So guys, no I won’t be tanned when I come back from curryland (the general assumption).

But it is also some sort of a nunnery because only girls are sent there. Yup, just my luck. It’s funny because just before the placement my friend asked what if we end up in the all girls place (read: are we gonna grow old alone and die as virgins as people told me if you don’t have a boyfriend by the time you graduate from med school, you’re doomed) and I told her we won’t be that unlucky. Well guess what, shit happens. To me. She got somewhere else but I’m glad she did.

It’s okay I can deal with the nunnery part but the worse part is that I am separated from most of my friends. Yes I knew this was coming, it’s inevitable but still, it doesn’t make it any less depressing to have it confirmed. To top it off my bff Michelle won’t be heading to India at all. In fact she might leave anytime now. Gonna be a bit dramatic but a part of me died a little inside.

But it is not just me. Save for an occasional jubilation for much too few, lot of hopes were dashed, hearts broken in the hall where the announcement took place.

Also, perhaps the most tragic part, it really doesn’t help to have my worst fear confirmed.

Bleeding only to see the gloom of the clouds ahead. Can you hear the steady dripping sound?

All Smiles

Hi there. I am not gloating but I am just honestly really happy with my life now.

The leaves are greener.

The sun shines brighter.

The air smells fresher.

Plain water tastes sweeter.

The current song that I’m listening to reflects my mood just right: On Top Of The World by Imagine Dragons. Clever, clever Ipod.

In fact so happy that I can’t help myself from putting a smiley after this sentence. 🙂

Now on to the part as to why. For the past few months, as aforementioned in my previous post, I have been vegetating happily. Well, not exactly vegetating, I am faced with happy dilemmas each day. For example, what to eat for the next meal, where to go for the next short vacation, where to go shopping, which movie or series to watch, which album to blast out without any reservations to scream along since I don’t have to memorize anything from the textbook.

Amongst other gems that illuminate my now colourful life include countless hours spent with the close friends and family time. There are very few things can rival the content of a simple meal with good company. Oh and also the fact that I didn’t gain any weight in the midst of all this feasting without exercising. (!) Though that has to change soon, the exercising bit because it goes against the health freak principles.

Of course this elevated state I am in will not be permanent, I am a realist to a certain extent. But I am not waiting for the shoe to drop, let it be. So, to whoever who is reading this, I hope some of the positive energy I think I am emitting through this post will rub off on you. I do hope you feel great as I do, if not better.

“Look at all the beauty still left around you and be happy!” Anne Frank